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Ok. Dette er kanskje ikke en vanlig ting å spørre om, men jeg er desperat!

Jeg vil gjerne skrive en blogg, på ENGELSK!, men er usikker på om jeg i det hele tatt kan skrive ordentlig. Hverken nork eller engelsk.

Jeg poster et av mine innleggg, så gi gjerne tilbakemelding basert på struktur, ordforråd og "skrivestil" og IKKE innhold. Ikke heller skrivefeil, da jeg vet at det er noen skrivefeil der.

Hvis dere har tips til hva jeg kan gjøre for å bli bedre blogger, tas det i mot med stort TAKK

Her er det...

The Litght Dark Days

Salam alaikom, folks!

... So here I was, thinking I was living the dream. Studying to become a reporter. I wanted to change the world. Free girls and women from oppression, I was gonna do that through my journalism skills. I was going to travel the world and let the world see the real truth about stuff western and local media tend to cover up for their own benifits.

I was free, noone to question my actions. Noone to answer to but myself. What I was forgetting was that there was Someone bigger than anyone else. Whose power is bigger than anyone's. Someone who I should be prepared for His questions. I was forgetting that I was just a weak human being, and that my exstance is to thank for Allah. Allah who put me here in this world for a reason. To worship Him. To follow His words. To do everything I do for Him. To dedicate myself to Him! I was forgetting that I, should change before I could "change the world".

The depression was actuaslly epiphany. Yes, I had to dropp out of school. I could't concentrate. There was a whole semester I could not understand what was happening to me. I went to see the faculty psychologist. They evaluated me and with my past, they concluded I was having a PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). I wanted to believe them, but then why would that happen just now? It was long time ago! But then they would say it is usuasl for PTSD to occur when one's life is stable enough to have to mental space, so they can they can deal with the past emotionally. React on it. And as it seemed I had that space then. I didn't have anything else to distract me from it anymore. I didn't have to push it away. I had always had it hanging over my shoulder and never had the time to deal with it before then.

In november 2009, I totally broke down! I did't want to do anything. I didnt want anyone to do anything with me. I would just lay in my sofa in fetel position sad and crying nonstop. Somedays I would be sad about why I was sad and not doing anything. Then I began acting errationally. I would spend money I didn't have. Taking the kids for trips I couldn't afford. It has gone on like this for a good six-seven months!

But after dark comes litght, right? Or in my case through dark came light! I started praying! I could sit several hours and pray to Allah to forgive me. I was ready for repentance! And I knew in my heart that I was given anoher chance. A chance to repent, to make up for all the wrongs I have done. A chance to see what really matters in this life. I started wearing my hijab again. But I was still wearing jeans. I have been planning to get rid of them too, in time. Still am. Maybe that is why I haven't bought any for the past couple of years? I started wearing long dresses. Abayas and so on.

In the summer of 2010 (july 19th to be exact my husband asked me to marry him and obviously, I said yes. I love him, but he is also a part of my tawba. He doesn't know it, yet, but my husband helped me alot with my fight against shaytan! I am still trying my best. And I hope you pray with me for forgivness and guidence from Allah Subhanah Wataalaa!

Thank you for reading and please if you have an advise, question or anything, don't hasitate to leave a comment. I would appreciate it! Ramaan Kareem <3

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[AnonymBruker]

Oops! Jeg vet ikke hvorfor, men jeg ser at det er lenket til bloggen min. Det var IKKE med vilje! Kan være viruset jeg har i maskina mi, den streker nemlig under random ord og når du klikker på de går du rett til reklame for et eller annet.

Sorry om det finnes regler mot slikt. Dere får fjerne med engang.

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[AnonymBruker]

Nja, greit nok, det er lesbart, men du bør nok informere om at engelsk ikke er morsmålet ditt og deretter jobbe litt med engelsk-skillza

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[AnonymBruker]

Det er en del feil, men ikke så det blir uleselig, og du fikk godt frem poenget ditt. En del småskrivefeil, samt litt skranting på setningsbygging, men det er slikt som går seg til tenker jeg.

Som AB over sa, informer om at engelsk ikke er morsmålet ditt så lesere har det i minnet, og så jobber du med språket etterhvert.

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